THE HAUNT IN ABSTRACTION [A SUB DOCUMENT OF VOLUME 4 "TIME IN ABSTRACTION"]

 December 4th 2024

I recommend you take this in all seriousness while it is regarded at this time as fictional or madness. Ample evidence points to the integrity and constructed metaphysical presence of this creature.

Please disregard grammatical incongruence. I write in a way to accurately convey a message to the reader independent of modern acceptably

 In A Steady Rhythm I Have Attracted Methodical Interpolation Between IT and I. 

As of my last account, on the notice, and semi-definable characteristics of something so intangible and disingenuous, I made the conscious choice to attempt to open an abstract yet perceptible form of communication with THE HAUNT. In my frank and irreflective narrative, I assumed a method of which can be demoted to simplicity, and to true luck, THE HAUNT has influenced and directed these methods. As done by ancient prophets, and fathers of religion, in order to thin the veil. The veil between that which lives inside of perception, and that which does not, in instances intended to contact the external. As done by them, I employed the methods and principles of the esthetics. 

Previously I discussed fasting as a method and means to achieve a collapsed state of existence upon that which is seen. Eventually, I was in limbo of this, reaching 3 days. That was a month ago, and with it, I lost the ability to sleep. This is not abnormal in any sense, as caloric intake relates directly to circadian rhythmic activity. However, there was a stark contrast between normal insomnia, and deeply complex insomnia. Here, I now sleep, at most, 4 hours of the night, 3 nights a week, with a 20 hour period on Saturdays of heavy REM sleep, waking each 3 hours in between the times of 7pm, 11pm, 3am, 6am, 10am, and 12 at true waking. 

I was initially concerned and made an appointment to check for any abnormalities in my physical state, and as was expected, there were none. In lieu of this I was prescribed several medications that made me incomprehensibly ill as I woke. As waking, from sleep induced by this prescription, I was met with an intense bout of syncope, fainting upon waking, with numbing pain. In hours I came again, in confusion and cold fear. My hearing was gone until mid-morning. 

I started to understand some time ago, but I cannot tell you when. As I have seemed to become separate from true memory, centralized time, and permeable reality. I started to understand the true method of THE HAUNT in abstraction, in separation, in denial, and disposition of that which is linear, centered, and observable. What I intend to convey, is that the haunt speaks in the well of border psychosis, before delusions of interpersonal convention, it speaks in the silence beforehand. 

And, to my own personal astonishment, I have heard it, outside of my head. In one instance only, as I was about to commit an irreversible act of self destruction, and jump off an eleven story building, it told me, “stop, wait.” Effectively saving my life in that moment, and every moment going forward, as long as I remain under its instruction. As for why, I cannot tell you. All I know as of now, is that I have true faith in this creature, now that it has revealed itself to me, verbally, and in the ways it has dispelled knowledge unto me. I believe for better or for worse, THE HAUNT has intention, beyond my ability to comprehend, and that is what I must live for, in faith, of the blind devout. 

Although this new sense of faith may seem contradictory to my original document, my intention of faith is not that of which one stems from viral and unanswered worship. My attempts of worship have backfired on every occasion. I have performed various methods of these, using ancient Egyptian alchemic routines, simply as I was drawn to these, and intended to follow instinctual directions. THE HAUNT lives in chance, and therefore in instinct, the subtle feelings which pull an entity from one option to another. Every method I have used to perform an act of worship, but more specifically to gain a personal diesire, has led me to the polar opposite, and affected my life rather negatively. While this could be completely reliant on chance, or external circumstances, I believe it is a message, and a reminder of my original inference on the dynamic in between that of IT and I. That we are inherently equal, with different places in a cosmic function of systematic entropic decay.

So, to limit worship to faith, I have started using the concept of AS ABOVE, SO BE BELOW. Functionality is not limited to true positivity, I have never felt, well, to put simply, more horrible in my life, as I began to associate with this creature, hence my original uncompleted act of frankly stupid and rash self destruction. So, I believe, there is true neutrality in the methods and in which directions it functions. As along with the extreme lows, I have never felt more alive, and more determined to live, since it has given me instruction to. I still wait for a reason, but this will come, I am sure of it. 

While this document is shorter, I assure you, I will update how things are continuing upon completion of my 4th manuscript - THE DOUBLE ZERO. 

Do not see this as a delusion. This is my life. 

AFTERAFFECT - THE HAUNT - DOCUMENT TWO.